Ellis Howard understands the weight of recognition. His role in “What It Feels Like For A Girl” has earned him a BAFTA Breakthrough award, a moment he describes as a powerful affirmation for a story that dared to be unapologetically itself.
The BBC drama, born from trans author Paris Lees’ memoir, isn’t simply a coming-of-age story; it’s a visceral exploration of identity. It follows Byron, a teenager desperate to break free from the confines of a small town, navigating the complexities of gender and sexuality alongside a newfound circle of friends.
But the narrative takes an unexpected turn when Byron is drawn into a relationship with the enigmatic Liam, forcing a confrontation with realities far more challenging than youthful longing. The show’s impact continues to ripple outwards, months after its initial broadcast.
“It’s astonishing that our small show is receiving this level of validation,” Howard shared, reflecting on the profound connection viewers have made with the series. He emphasized that the cast approached the project with a deep sense of purpose, a feeling of being part of something truly significant.
Currently in Australia, Howard has been struck by the show’s universal resonance. He’s been consistently moved by the willingness of audiences to engage in open and honest conversations sparked by the story.
The timing of this resonance feels particularly crucial, given the rising tide of anti-trans rhetoric globally. Howard, acutely aware of his own position as a cisgender man, feels a responsibility to amplify the voices of his trans siblings.
He passionately advocates for unwavering support, not just in visibility and acceptance, but in tangible opportunities – ensuring trans individuals are not only seen and loved, but also fairly compensated and empowered within the arts and beyond.
Howard stresses the importance of knowing when to step forward and use one’s platform, and equally, when to yield the microphone to those with lived experience. He credits Lees’ powerful voice as a guiding force throughout the process.
Through Byron, Howard discovered a reconnection with a younger, more defiant version of himself – a part of him that had been subtly eroded over time. Lees’ fearless authenticity served as a catalyst, granting him a “passport back to himself.”
He acknowledges the vital role of mentorship and collaborative creativity in his own journey, emphasizing the transformative power of free arts training. He speaks fondly of teachers and writers who recognized and nurtured his potential.
Howard believes those who have achieved a position of influence have a duty to pave the way for the next generation, making access to the arts – and all fields – more equitable. This sentiment is echoed by Daf James, another BAFTA Breakthrough recipient, who lauded the initiative’s invaluable training and networking opportunities.
While “What It Feels Like For A Girl” launched Howard into the spotlight, he sees it as a beginning, not an end. He’s currently developing a semi-autobiographical project with Netflix, rooted in the raw honesty of his upbringing in Liverpool.
This new venture, born from the isolation of lockdown, is a deeply personal exploration that fills him with excitement and a sense of profound gratitude. It’s a testament to his commitment to authentic storytelling, a quality that defines his work.
